Tug of War (otherwise known as Divorce)

We all know that Divorce is never easy. It is often full of bitterness, resentment and often fear and pain covered in a shroud of anger. But what is in the middle of this tug of war between two sides?

Lets first look at the rope itself. A rope is twisted string. Each string is in itself strong and complete, but by itself it is not near as strong as the finished rope, with hundreds of strings intertwined. So each piece of string is then wrapped around one another. The individual strings are so close together and so tightly wound that they become one big rope. This rope is our relationships (our marriage). Together we are stronger and complete. This rope however, then becomes longer and longer and each end becomes farther apart. Eventually you have a long rope and at each end you have a person holding tightly to what he or she thinks is the winning end. Before you know it you are both so far apart that you don't see them as your mate, but as the competition. Each person pull and digs in, they don't give up. They will fight till the bitter end, trying to pull the other end into the mud. But what are you pulling for anyway, is this not the rope that you first made together? Is this not all the pieces of string that each of you share. What has happened?

Your ends have gotten so far apart that you loose site of what made the rope strong in the first place. It is not about which end is better it is about each independent string and acknowledging that each end of the rope has its place and has a purpose, its trying to remember that you were once on the same end, that you once respected and admired this person...

In Divorce the only ones who truly loose are the children. They end up in the mud along with one of their parents. This is never a good ending for any child and the ensuing battle that launched this Tug-O-War in the first place, does nothing but teach this child that it is all about 'the winning' or making the other person suffer, rather than teaching your child to respect life and its teaching. You see parents should be civil, they should do their best to be understanding and as amicable as possible. Each should not let bitterness, anger and resentment get in the way of love & support of their child. Yet so many let their own anger penetrate their parenting. They start verbally speaking badly about the other parent in front of their child. They start airing dirty laundry in front of the child and in some cases even tell details of the divorce to thus get the child to side with them. I have even seen parents that use ploys of toys, trips, candy and gifts to thus get the child on their side of the tug-o-war rope. Not to mention the parents that actually manipulate their own children to get the upper hand in a divorce.

In the end - in this Tug-O-War- only the child looses. Maybe one day we can start teaching these children to take scissors with them and cut the rope in half anytime they feel caught in the middle of a tug-o-war battle. Maybe one day we will have parents that aren't self centered enough to care about who wins the divorce war to begin with.

Forgiveness, for whom.

"www.gatewaychurch.com"



Great topic in Church today. click above link and look for the MP3 download for Oct. 21st, DIVORCE: Moving Forward and Leaving the Past Behind.Of course the fact that churches these days are starting to recognize and acknowledge the fact that,

1 out of 2 people are touched in some way by divorce

, is great. At least now the hurting souls can be acknowledged and touched. This means either your parents divorced, you are divorced or someone close to you has experienced divorce. So what can we do to help each other? Encourage forgiveness.

Of course we can preface this by saying that this does not mean your ready to talk to the person, see them or even call them. Sometimes the pain is too new or too deep and it might be harder to forgive in person or in a letter even. But you can learn to forgive in your heart first.

So Ted finally gets to the heart of it all in his talk today, FORGIVENESS and where do we start.

Can you forgive your ex? Or in cases like mine, can we forgive our parents or parent (as often times children of divorce will blame one parent for the ills in the marriage)? Can we mend our hearts and really let go of the past? Do we understand that we cannot move foreword, heal and grow until we can first learn to forgive?

I will leave you with this question and encourage you to journal about it; meditate on it; set aside some quite time to think about it. But I also want to leave you with this question. Who do you need to forgive? How long have you been angry, or hurt? How does this hurt in your heart affect your life, your other relationships? More importantly how much longer do you want to let it impede your ability to grow, love and nurture yourself and others?

We cannot change where we came from, so do not waste precious time trying to fix or change the beginning. You can however change where you are heading, so concentrate on what you can do now to help change your future instead. This step begins with you.

Children Acting Out

There are many children of divorce that act out in both verbal and non verbal negative communication. Meaning quite simply they can be real monsters sometimes.

I have had this experience on several occasions. Although, I am not a therapist or trained professional counselor, I can comment on what I have noticed:

Children of divorce need your attention. Even the ones that don't act out and sit quietly to themselves. These quiet ones can sometimes be the ones you really need to worry about. But we will save that for another topic.

Kids that act out are doing it to spite you; get back at you; get your attention (they don't care if its good or bad attention). To them any attention fills their need. They can often revel in providing shock value as well.

So why do they do this? Several factors, lets look at my thoughts on some:
* Their life has been turned upside down, acting out is their outlet
* A parent is out of the picture full time and they miss that connection
* They might think it's your fault that the divorce happened & they are punishing
you with their bad behavior
* Acting out is the only way they can get you to pay 100% attention to them, since
the divorce are you busy doing other things?
* They fear you might leave too, acting out is a result of this fear
* If your marriage had yelling, they are eager to get you to yell, its comforting
(another words they have learned to associate love with yelling and fighting)

So now what?

TALK to your child, you get in counseling if necessary. You make sure you allow yourself at least 1 hour uninterrupted with each child every night. This is a minimum and in no way is the standard or best case scenario. Best case is 2.5 hrs plus. But we know in post divorce, your schedules and available time changes.

LISTEN to your kids, get them to talk and open up about their feelings.
Remember discipline is needed. You need to keep an orderly home and rules. Don't let them run over you. Its easy to feel guilty after divorce and then you think you need to let them get away with everything because of your own guilt. DON'T DO THAT.

GUIDE your child and be the parent in firm control now more than ever. They need to know that you have it under control and your in charge.

Structure. You will hear me say this over and over. They need structure and routine now more than ever. You have to be accountable just as much as they do.

Women and Divorce

Women can be highly emotional, volatile, draining, self righteous, determined, bull headed, stubborn, miserable and life changing. After all I am a woman and I admit to all of these and more. But what happens when you put a woman through a Divorce? Which in itself is emotional, volatile, draining, miserable and life changing.

The Answer is : An often highly emotional, mass of churning thoughts, feelings and debris. It's like a walking tornado in heels. Either she is idle and churning in the air, not touching ground but still the inside is all twisted and torn. OR she is on the ground causing disruption and chaos in her path. So how does a tornado of debris calm itself and again return to natural state:

The best way to help calm the storm of emotions and thoughts is to slowly take the items rustling around inside out. By dealing with each issue and problem separately and one at a time, your able to resolve things, find peace and in some cases get much needed answers. To be able to work on yourself you must be willing to accept your part in things as well as be willing to work hard at making changes.

It helps to have a support system, not just family and friends but other women who are going through what you are going through. This connection is invaluable and will no doubt come in handy. Not only do you need this connection you will depend on this connection. I will have a list of links below that you might find useful.

There are many books out there that are written specifically for women in divorce. I would highly recommend you look at several and read the back cover, intro and reviews to make sure your getting the right book for you. This is not man bashing time. This is 'working on you' time. Again below you will find some great resources to help you in your journey.

This is the beginning of a new life and a new you. Rejoice in it and make the best out of today. Tomorrow is all new and its all about beginning with you.

http://www.womansdivorce.com/books.html
http://www.dailystrength.org
http://www.cafemom.com
http://www.divorcecare.org/healing/

*** this last link is one of my favorites.
Be careful not to get on sites where the forums are bogged down with negativity and people choosing to live in perpetual drama and a dredging up of the past. Look to bright, good energy, evolving sites that encourage change and growth amongst it's members.

Remember my motto:
"Tomorrow is new and its all about beginning with you"

Divorcing With Kids

This will be short and to the point.
If your divorcing now or know a divorce is on the horizon here are a few suggestions I would make. Of course none of these things were really available or talked about when I was a child going through a divorce. But now the world of Internet makes it possible for you to reach out and get all kinds of information as well as great resources to help you and your kids.

1) REACH OUT TO OTHERS
Your not in this alone. Sometimes it seems as if its all falling in, the walls are closing in and the roof is coming down on your head, Nothing is going right and its everything you can do - to pull yourself out of bed each morning and do what you need to do in order to make it through another day. But your not alone. Others have made it through a divorce as well, and each of them felt this way too at some point. Find these people and connect with them. Internet searches, local churches, non-profit groups, divorce counselors etc are all good resources.
2) DON'T TAKE IT OUT ON YOUR KIDS
It is easy to be stressed out tired and angry or hurt all at once. Unfortunately, this is often taken out on the child. You might not think your doing it. But your quick temper, loud words and even your body language speaks volumes to your child. Make sure your not reacting out of rage and anger toward your ex and taking it out on the kids.
3) DON'T GET IN ANOTHER RELATIONSHIP
This might well be in every blog I do, but so be it. It is that important. DO NOT get involved in another relationship until at least 1 year after the divorce is FINAL. This does not mean 1 year after you started sleeping in separate rooms, or 1 year after you moved out. BUT 1 year after the divorce is final. This is very important for not only you and your ability to have nurturing relations but you also need a 'healed' heart and soul before you can start sharing it with someone else. Beside your kids will need you more than ever. Your spare time and your not so spare time need to be 100% for you and your children. Do not be selfish in this respect. How long were you married??? So then 1 year is not that much to ask. I have even heard it said its 1 year by yourself for ever 5yrs of marriage, with the 1 year a minimum. SO if you were married 10yrs its 2 years on your own. Do this for yourself and your child, but at the very least wait 1 year before you start even dating.
4) DON'T MAKE YOUR CHILD PICK FAVORITES
DO not use your kids as a pawn in this nasty battle. Although it can be tempting. I mean you want your child to pick you right? you want to be the parent on top- the winner so to speak. DON'T DO THIS. Remember your children deep down love both of you. Even if there is one parent who did something that made the child angry. The child still deep down loves both parents - this is natural and the way it should be. Don't make them pick sides and don't plant information and ideas in their heads. This is only hurting the child and messing with their future relationship with this parent. Further, it could potentially lay the ground work for your child to have tumultuous relationships in the future when they grow up. Allow your child to love you both and learn to bite your tongue and keep your feelings out of it.
5) DON'T ARGUE-YELL OR VOICE YOUR ANGER ABOUT THE OTHER PARENT IN FRONT OF KIDS
Kids will sometimes pick up on your hurts, listen to your grievances being displayed or talked about openly with the kids present. I even had one child tell me she heard her Mom talking to her grandma about her Dad taking all the money and having an affair. She told me she thought it mean her Dad had a younger girlfriend. This child was only 7 years old. Be cautious about whom your talking to and what is being said when your child is in the house. In this case this child does not need to know the explicit details of the divorce, further it made this 7 year old feel like she needed to help protect her Mom. A child at this age is the one that needs to be cared for and protected, not the other way around.

Picking Your Friends

Remember when you parent(s) tried to tell you who to hang out with when your were a kid? Why is it that we always did the exact opposite of what we were told to do (or was that just me)?

I remember hanging around some, well lets just say unsavory characters in 6th grade. I mean you might think how bad can it be, I mean this cant be like the Sopranos do middle school, right? Yeah, well ok, so maybe I should just say, the kids I was hanging out with were the ones not paying attention in school, making bad grades (when they did show up for class) and typically could be considered the black sheep of their families. Did I mention they all wore black members only jackets (yes I am dating myself here) and typically could be found in detention at least 3 days out of the week after school.

"And why don't you want me hanging out with them?" I would ask my Mom. Followed by some screaming and yelling and something like this: "You cant make me". Well needless to say she showed me. We moved about 6 months later, not just into a new neighborhood but a new city! Did it work, well yes in a way, although I did try hashing out a plan to run away, I even had it down to where to catch the bus and how much it would cost, my problem was figuring out how to get to the Greyhound station. SO needless to say, and thank goodness for miracles. My ill fated plan never came to fruition.

My advise, talk to your kids and more importantly show them and LEAD them by example. This is talked about on the blog I have attached as a reference. It points out so well how we need to communicate with kids and share with them our own struggles to find the right friends. Most importantly, let them see first hand through your friends the truth behind finding good people to surround yourself with. Just maybe, if by communicating and leading by example, parents can "Pick who their children hang out with."

Its all in the Dash - The Dash after Divorce

Ever heard the saying that in life its all about the dash? Well it means that we are given a gaurantee of only two things in life, a birth date and a death date. We know this is eminent. What matters most in life is the dash in between. How do you live that dash. Did you treat people well, were you fair, did you do things your passionate about, did you make a difference?

Well I have a new thought and it related to you and your divorce date. You see your life really does start over after the Divorce date. Think about it. You might be moving into a new home, starting a new job, learning about yourself and working on how to become a better person, parent and mate in the future. I mean you get to start so many things anew and the most inportant aspect of this is your child.

You have the opportunity to change everything you do and how you react to your child. You are given the chance to help replace their feelings of angst and pain form the divorce. Maybe you and your ex fought all the time. Maybe you were moody and quick to react. Maybe your patience went away. Did you child see something diffent in you? Maybe they saw a parent on the edge, a parent unhappy, a parent in a bad mood all the time. Maybe your child got the brunt of you frustrations.

Well now you can replace those feelings or memories with good ones. You have the chance to do things differently now, you have the chance to change the dash for the better. You can do whatever you want with that dash, make sure you make it count. Make sure you make it count. Make sure you work on yourself and find your happiness and peace again, for the sake of your child and for you.

Make the dash afer your divorce the start of something new, the start of a new life and a new you. Make the dash your turning point and remember you dont know how long you have to use this dash, so make sure you make the best use of every second.

This lesson (blog) came about after a service I heard at church, I was reminded in his 'life lesson' about the "dash" concept and how we only get one dash. I started to think about the kids and parents in my divorce recovery group and it made me think, WOW - parents have this greta opportunity to change their dash for the better.

Listen to the lesson, fo more peronal insight about the dash in your life